2005-12-07 - 1:44 p.m. so not getting work done today!!!! vla. so sweet..hahah, the purification. i was dying. i guess i can take more purification in my air. :*) also, here's the email i wrote back to my mom after i told her i was processing old hurt and she said, "hurt hurts. i'm sorry if i had contributed to any of it. from the bottom of my heart." there's such a canyon between then and now, but i can't find the bridge upon which i can cross over yet. i just don't see it yet. here's the email back...feeling like i need to forewarn her about not coming or coming under new plans...:: K well I apologize if it has to get in the way of the present. But I re read my diary during the ages of 12-14 and I am really disturbed. Not entirely sure how I can come home right now. Not committing to it. I�m really feeling hurt. I rarely have looked back. I know you two are different today. I don�t want you to beat yourself up. I�m just really hurt and I don�t know how to reconcile or make sense of the past. |
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