2005-04-03 - 4:33 p.m.

i am really happy.

today is a day for happiness.

the sun is blasting and i'm living like a peruvian.

cruising.

recap: fri drank too much, more to tell, intermixed with a friend (not mta) more on that tho as well...

next day spent nearly 1g's on plastic at a sample sale. i spent so much they gave me a gift bag and invited me into the vip group for next time. bawler.

then last night i practiced new behavior with a guy, the brit and it's incredible to experience somehting brand new. cat he and his friend and i all night. and now they are stocking us and drove WAY ACROSS TOWN to surprise us with a manufactured need for icecream. adorable, price plus limited availability equals perceived value.

it just feels so nice to have this glimpse, this new window on believing i can be loved again. that i can be loved with a scar, and boobs that don't pass the pencil test.

that humaness is sexy.

i'm so tired. i've gotten no ssleep man. but i'm so happy. i'm just here.