2005-03-16 - 7:02 p.m.

so check this out...i finally got ahold of my would be boss and he disclosed that they have been waiting for me to call.

how sick is that? whichever applicant called, gets it. but i was told specifically after the interview that if the price is right, "we will call you in a day or day and a half."

so i took the relaxed approach thinking they were hammering something out. so i guess he was disappointed, the prez, and to top it off neither i or the other candidate did call.

so i was over myself thinking i couldn't let it slip on something so miniscule. so silly, becuz i am the follow up girl man. and i've been stewing for days panicking about getting this job because my financial state is so precarious. precarious is too friendly a word for it really. all of my clients after they book have had to cancel. so i've had almost nothing but some blind ass faith. and if i didn't get this job, i have had absolutely no plan b, unless selling ass is a plan b,i'mkidding!! i'd sell my eggs not my ass anyway.

so highly concerned about this job slip-by, i take the advice of would be boss to convey to the prez that i've taken the last few days to research about one of the clients. i did more than that, i researched it in ten minutes, wrote a proposal in twelve, faxed two later. bam. howz dat fer yer follow up. then i followed the fark up all day.

six p.m. my call gets intercepted by someone for the prez and says we'd like to bring you in tomorrow, i'm thinking a third interview? what'd they want me to do, tap dance? bring in your social and driverrs lisc. eh? i'm hired? "yes i guess you are."

"so I can get excited?"
"yes you can."
show of excitement.
"great i'll see you tomorrow, we'll talk about money then?"
"yes."

okay man i've never really been hired *before* we've really negotiated money, but seeing as how it's gone so far, i am not surprised. i won't be surprised if i got there tomorrow and they revoked their "yeah sure" offer. i am still hesitant to really throw down and celebrate. but holy fuck i need this ya all. but now we do have to battle out money, as i quoted a rate early on that was off the top of my head, and too low. now it might get clumpy going back and ironing that out. i've got some idea's about htat. if i have to, i'll take it as is and ask to renegotiate in a month after i've represented.

but here's another fucker...i have to somehow tell them why i need a week off work right after i've begun the damn job. argggg!! that just makes my heart pop. one time i started a new job with undiagnosised poisen ivy. i know how do you undiagnosis that? well i saw a doctor who thought it was some rare skin thing and treated it with herpie med's and left the ivy to spread and spread and ich and send me into the bathroom crying. yeah that was the job the guy who hired me said, put the pretty one right outside my office. nice man.

wait now i have pre-office jitters, and am i starting tomorrow, or just filling out paperwork? this is very discombobulated man. i think i need a hefferweisen with lemon.

it's been so long. years since i've had a job at a desk where i was expected to show consistently. holy ..it's been since may 2001.

i just entertained my odd food habits today. i go to four different markets for various idems only they carry. vodka sauce and smooshy warm crusty exterior bread at the italians, kombucha cheaper at the co-op, litter at the regular overly lit suicidal mega store cuz cheap, whole foods for my fav tuna melt mix, trader joes for other stuff that doesn't fall into one of those categories. :*)

are we excited? some of the hard work paying off...i think. we'll see tomorrow. my girl is coming this weekend, my lill sis/cousin and now that i know i'll be employed i am unafraid about splurging on her. i was starting to worry about hemorraging money i don't have. i lvoe her so much i'd do anything for her. i bought a bunch of food treats, all her favorites for her already. :*) can't wait. i'm taking her to a bunch of events for fashion week and st. pattys. lord help me that i don't disappoint her with lude drunken behavior.