2005-03-07 - 1:28 a.m.

i bafooed mta's bday sat night. i fell asleep and could not be asked.

i literally felt incapable of driving all the way into hollywood, where the screamers scream and the valley invades.

i got a call at 2.38a.m. from mta asking why i wasn't there and that he was saving the dance for me. he had a girl in the bg. friend? probably, otherwise he shouldn't be calling me. adorable that in all his drunken fun he thought to call.

still crushing.

under 25.

a drug
i just
can't
seem
to
stop!

mta= 25
the australian that followed me home today? 23.

that's a whole other story. but an adorable one i'm sure.

i have just been work obsessed today. and i've been having a blast sculpting with wax. what fun. i'm on hold for client work all day tomorrow, which i absolutely need, but i would then have to do the portfolio and samples and trade show stuff afterhours which might just knock me out. i don't know how i'll get through the next two weeks if i actually do this tradeshow, follow thro with this job, sample this stuff for the show, get samples to the fav boutique in the next few days.

i take on too much. i expect too much. of everything including myself and anyone and everything within a hundred mile radius.

must
get
horizontal
...
gratefully
alone. :*) thro all this, i've been relatively well behaved and focused on work. how odd.