2004-01-20 - 12:00 p.m.

dood, this is now feeling like one of the best things that's ever happened to me.

it's forced me to release my fucking VICE GRIPE ON LIFE.

i'm so fateally self-sufficient and stubborn that it's taken THIS to get me to see that people are here for me and to open up to them and to open upo to help.

some people are so fucking kind, it almost hurts. the bus lady let me ride for free. everyone is driving me everywhere i need to go, even strangers. lizard has been incredible. it's been awakening and beautiful.

and i think i'll work out the deal and end up with a nice set of wheels. and when this is all done, i'm gonna have a car krisening party and give away a free oil change at jiffy lube.

take this bitch and boogie!