2004-01-04 - 2:59 a.m.

"alright, do you enema, throw on some clothes and let's roll."

LA nights. ass up that's the way we like it.

so i had some brilliant scheme to go on a raw food/ fast. i'm on day two of raw food and tomorrow i start my fast. fuck dood. and to torture myself a tad more, i decided that i would do a silence with the fast. actually that was just plain logic as i know i can't bear to speak to anyone if i haven't eaten, i'm a riot when that happens.

so tomorrow, the computer's off, phone off, no people, do not disturb sign, no work, no reading, no consumption of any sort. just sitting. breathing, being. cleaning. yoga, walks, meditation. not even music! if i can stand that. i wonder what will happen when everything gets so quiet. i wonder if i'll be able to last more than an hour. in my own space without filling up on anything.

i hope i get high from it. i hope i go away, far away inside.

i may do it for two days, depending on whether i have to go in for jury duty or not on monday, but definately all day and night tomorrow.

i told lizard that i was scared, she said she was too. she doesn't like to be out of communicae with me that long.

tonight we had a very borring night.

ps. the enema didn't work that well.

wish me luck. i'm going in.