2003-12-11 - 1:00 a.m. laziness: 2 sugar binge: 0 i'm still too lazy to go and buy the brownie frosted sugar cookie absolute rush. i declined nyc tonight. which i'm feeling good about. cuz when i hang with him, i get enveloped by him. and i have too much 'to do'. and i'm hyper tense about my wrinkles that seem to grow by the day. i want that perky skin i had when i was 20. it was flawless and now it seems to have rebelled in a fierce and fucked way. i can't accept growing 'old'. i can't accept change when it's not to my benefit. i'm working late. worked all day on massage and at the activist job. now working more on the creative stuff. i need to tell my step brother off tomorrow. i'll let you know how it goes. hope you found a reason to smile today. even if it was your right hand. |
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