2003-10-29 - 7:53 p.m.

burning reminds us of the ultimate cycle of life. that everything which birthes and bursts, also destroys and destructs.

our cute so cal state is burning. ash is falling. people are coughing.

i just got back from nyc with a "friend". more on that later. much more on everything. i did some meetings for my art stuff. that went really well. i'm breakin through barriers inside myself and i'm bearing myself ready. finally inching more towards the birth canal.

all i want is to create the art. i want to steal away time and i feel others are trying to rob me of exactly that. to taste the essense inside of me. to feel the wings that help me fly. all i have are my wings.