2003-09-28 - 8:32 p.m.

hiya. i'm very delinquent in my entries updatery.

life is busy.

i did this 'big' benefit event and it winded me. i don't want to ever do it again and i know everyone will be looking to me to do it again next year.

i'm still w/ luke. he's really quite incredible. i love him. i don't love that he's in school and makes no money, not cuz i'm looking for a baller, but because it makes me uncomfortable when someone i loves worries about money. i hate to worry about money and i keep it very simple and so simple it stays and i never worry. i love him. he's all errupted over me.

one of my art projects i mentioned earlier was rejected and i was devastated. it felt like a horrid breakup with a love. and i capped off the emotion in an abrupt effort to move on. maybe not a bad professional way to deal wth it.

i've been chanting with the buddhists lately and that's suddley changing my perspective. i'm feeling more solid from the inside, like with the rejection, i still feel ready to go get em. i feel like i've found what makes me so unbearably happy in life and now i'll never stop. i hope i stick with that forever.

luke is very delicious in bed. i made dinner for him last night. a very romantic one that i felt suspended from. i felt removed by the tarnish of how many romantic meals i've had with others, that the newness has worn off with wear. we skateboarded down to yoga this a.m., quitessentially LA-yo! i'm just now really getting into the writers movement, ei. graffiti. i want to do a photo show of some epic LA ones. i want to rock it with them and go on adventures. i'll let you know.

cheers you crazy fuckers.