2003-02-18 - 12:10 a.m.

i went to a peace march on the beach i was the 'a' in the 'peace' that we formed for an aireal photo shot. i'm so fucking enraged about this war and peoples nonthinking stupidity about believing every fucking word delivered on the news cuz the fucking lady is pretty with perfect blond hair, so she must know what she's talking about.

fuck.

my friend now says she's for the war cuz she heard saddam puts people in coffins alive. so she wouldn't go to the peace protest?

what the fuck kind of logic is that?? if you want peace, you want peace on earth, for people in coffins too. fucking idiot. i can't even stand the sight of her now.

sorry. i had to go there.

i have an audition tomorrow that i'm really jazzed out on. i want it. i want to prove something to myself and the show would probably take me to nyc!! so i'm nervous and eectera. and i'm irritated that i told people cuz then they'll ask how it went.

the surfer and i argued today. i feel closer to letting go of him. it's insane, i feel it inside, that he isn't right and i'm only lingering cuz he feels good. but opium also feels good.

the other guy continues to be stand up and i still don't know him well enough for him to fail me utterly yet. but we'll be going out tomorrow n;ight.

i need to go to bed.

buy some potasium iodine, it'll help for radioactive crap, not fuckin duct tape. the only help that is, is in covering the oil-igarcic presidents loud, illiterate mouth. repulicans need not apply.