2005-10-08 - 2:49 a.m.

i tried to update. a very long one.but th3n i got booted and gave up/

feeeling a bit wierd. this guy i met came over and i feel like once he realized he wouln't get laid, he left. instantaneously. how sad. is it really really allllllllllllll about that? thx budhha or whateva i've been behaved. how sad is this; i can barely thype i feel like i only had a few drinks. and i have to get up so early. responsibilty. regret/ oh how horrid. we were connnecting, but appparently only enough for him to hook up. how insubstanstive. how insulatary.

how borring.

but tomorrow is torture.

bookeeping. work. responsibility;

reality;

what happened. how will i recover in six hours.?

why, is all i ask?

why did he even bother?
WHY?

IT'S si perplexing to me.

thx g i didn't give an inch.i

i'm feelnnnnnnnnnnnng vrery insulary.......... very.