2005-09-13 - 7:37 p.m.

quicky...

things are fine.

little behind as per usual. running off to clients. sent two important work packets today, one to a very big buyer and another to an editor. let's hope for the best.

i don't know how this goes, becuz the next two months are big work months, then it's really slow through dec/jan. so i guess i'll have to plan well and save money when i get it for the months that will be dry. which of course i don't feel like i control any of that, becuz i just keep spending it on constant production.

supposedly my dad sent me some money for the bills, i have no idea if it's enough to cover jack crack and the big man tho. we'll see.

so let's see, as for my list of those i'm not in cahoots with,
dad (sorta, i feel it's better, just needs a bridging conversation that i never have time or energy for. as he "takes" energy.)

lizard. (again, energy. none avail. haven't heard from her. wrote the email, nothing back.. i really feel attacked by her, like she's been saving up for years and now is taking it all out on me now and i haven't done anything.)

mta. (he wanted to talk. but i questioned the point, defused his energy about it and haven't heard from him since. pussy.)

brother. (standard. ever since the surgery and his girlfriend, we've never been the same. it feels ruined. i drove tonight by the place we had dinnner whne it was all nice. i miss that.)

i think that's it. is that bad?

i have so much work to do. client, then i have 60 resume's to go thro, so should i choose to be so brave. exhausting. no one wants this job whom i want to have it. :*(